Philip Seymour Hoffman passed away on February 2nd as a result of his abuse of the drug heroin. It was reported shortly after his death that his estranged girlfriend Mimi O’Donnell had asked him to leave their shared apartment because of his relapse back into drugs and alcohol. It was said that she didn’t want his drug and alcohol abuse to have a negative effect on their three children, so she kicked him out in ‘tough love’ that she hoped would save his life.
In the end, we’ve learned that he was also involved with another woman. In a couple of diaries found by police at his Manhattan apartment, he wrote about his demons and the shame he felt going out and drinking. He wrote that he was “ashamed that he was going out and hanging out and drinking” after being sober for such a long period of time.
He said that he was haunted by “demons” and was trying hard to control his addictions with the help of Narcotics Anonymous meetings. In the journals, he also wrote about how he scored drugs — and some of the entries included times that he was actually in rehab. Some of the entries are hard to read and are believed to have been penned while he was still high on drugs.
One source said, “It’s a stream of consciousness and difficult to follow. In one line, he refers to ‘Frank who always owes money’, and on the same page, he writes about a 15-year-old girl from Texas.”
Another source said, “It seems he did at least part of it in rehab. It definitely contained some soul-searching. But there is also a fair amount of rambling that doesn’t make sense.”